all that you are

i'm guessing we just wish that a lot of things can explain themselves so that we don't have to continue wondering and misinterpreted it.

like,

"how can fate be nice to her but not me?"

"she deserve better and what makes her hang there for that long?'

don't sigh.never.

miss superman

scared? i dunno.

worried? i guess.

i'll do things when i wanted to do it. and this is not the thing that i want to do right now. sound reasonable?

well, i don't live to impress you either. ciao!

au revoir

he is slipping away,

like the wind through my finger,

like the breeze that touches my hair

but never seems to linger..

i'm losing him every each day,

by heart, like an ocean away..

despair is next to me, ready to break me apart..

(Sept 19,2010)

p/s: dulu-dulu...blerghhh,jiwang lak..

gelap

aku lompat dari lubang pokok ke lubang pokok..
bahasa orang putih
"jumping between tree holes"

aku tak pernah rasa sunyi macam ni,
bila balik rumah..

aku keluar rumah, jumpa sunyi lagi.
pandang kiri,sunyi.
pandang kanan,sunyi.

sunyi sampai aku fikir,
dah mati ke semua orang kat dunia ni?

ke aku yang mati?

aku pegang muka, jari.
"kau ada jasad lagi farahin.mati apanya?"
aku monolog.
dah nama monolog, mesti la cakap sorang-sorang.

lagi menambah kukuh apa yang aku fikir.

tapi sudahnya,aku sedar yang hati aku ni dah mati.
terus aku bentang sejadah, solat.
banyak dosa aku ni, ingat tuhan pon sekali-sekali.
sedang Allah tak pernah lupa aku sebab sekarang aku masih bernafas,
dan masih merasai perasaan.
walaupun perasaan tu cuma sunyi.

p/s: aku rindu adik aku sebenarnya..saja nak bagi ayat bunga-bunga.